2010. I am already there. I inadvertently cut up my old credit card with an expiration date of 9/10 when a new one came in for 9/14. 2014? Upon seeing puzzle pieces of plastic Mr. P.M. asked why I did this. I told him the card had expired. He asked me what year I thought it was.
My mind has been on 2010 for the last month beginning with booking our hotel room for son1's graduation in June from MIT. How can he be graduating from college already and be applying to PhD programs and interviewing for real life jobs that will not bring him back across the Rockies or even west of the Mississippi? My thoughts hadn't carried me to think this far into the future regarding the next convergence in his life. Wasn't it just yesterday we were picking out a blue plastic bucket for him to put celestial stickers on for his cubby in pre-school? I swear it was. Warp speed has a way of making it seem so.
Due to the Laws of the Universe and college commitments my precious planet has only orbited my solar system quarterly for the last four years and being like a planet in an astrological chart, resides in my house for a short time only to leave again on it's own charted course. I have tried to boldly go where all mothers have gone before with his initial launch in 2006 but with this new mission scheduled for June 2010 I am feeling the void more pronouncedly. It is a new world that is unknown and uncomfortable. I'm afraid my progress has now turned retrograde.
If I contemplate all this too long it makes my head spin. I get the same feeling when looking upwards into a clear night's sky contemplating my place in the universe. My head lightens when my mind takes to places of such vast wonderment. As a human, I don't have the capability to fully comprehend the universe. As a mother, I can't fully comprehend how we are no longer the center of his.
My mind has been on 2010 for the last month beginning with booking our hotel room for son1's graduation in June from MIT. How can he be graduating from college already and be applying to PhD programs and interviewing for real life jobs that will not bring him back across the Rockies or even west of the Mississippi? My thoughts hadn't carried me to think this far into the future regarding the next convergence in his life. Wasn't it just yesterday we were picking out a blue plastic bucket for him to put celestial stickers on for his cubby in pre-school? I swear it was. Warp speed has a way of making it seem so.
Due to the Laws of the Universe and college commitments my precious planet has only orbited my solar system quarterly for the last four years and being like a planet in an astrological chart, resides in my house for a short time only to leave again on it's own charted course. I have tried to boldly go where all mothers have gone before with his initial launch in 2006 but with this new mission scheduled for June 2010 I am feeling the void more pronouncedly. It is a new world that is unknown and uncomfortable. I'm afraid my progress has now turned retrograde.
If I contemplate all this too long it makes my head spin. I get the same feeling when looking upwards into a clear night's sky contemplating my place in the universe. My head lightens when my mind takes to places of such vast wonderment. As a human, I don't have the capability to fully comprehend the universe. As a mother, I can't fully comprehend how we are no longer the center of his.
"Also Sprach Zarathrustra" ~ Richard Strauss
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I wish life had a pause button! As mothers most of us feel our job is to make my boys respectful productive and self sufficient members of society. And darn if they don't grow up and show us how successful we were! Hugs! I love reading your blog about what's to come because it makes me appreciate my boys in the here and now (even when they drive me crazy!) ;)
Can it be that I am only a year behind you in this Auntie M??? Say it isn't so!!!
Sherrie ~ It all goes by too fast, the sweet and the crazy. Thank you for your nice comment.
Cheryl ~ You have a daughter close by and a grandson. One out of two ain't bad. :)
Oh Pink. My daughter graduated from college last May. Now she has job. In New Jersey, the same state as her university. I just told her, eventually, you had better make your way back to California. My son is learning Spanish - he said because he lives in California. So, I'm just HOPING...
Oh my gosh. This post is fabulous! I just love your metaphorical posts - love them. That last paragraph is publish worthy! You are something else, Miss Pink Martini and Pearls! xoxo
Lately it has been soo cold in FUllerton and I have been able to see so many stars. LAst night I looked up to the sky and for a moment I felt a feeling I couldnt explain. Must be the feeling of knowing we are all floating on thsi planet through life ...who knows...
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